Day 10

Here we are at Day 10 and this whole process has really been interesting. Physically I have adjusted to the diet - because my insides are no longer freaked out and my energy level is back (I did 15 + sets of Cindy even though it was 90 degrees in the gym, and even though my arms were SORE after thrusters the previous day). So, all of this is good stuff.

However, different difficulties are presenting themselves this week. I think I might be eating too much because I'm not losing any more weight and I'm feeling that stuffed stomach feeling at times through the day. That might be because my cravings are worse this week than last week. I just want a total cheat day. That old logic is trying to weasel it's way in...."If I have a cheat day I can get back on track the next day. Its okay." Its not, but I've always reasoned it away and that "next day" where I was going to get back on track didn't usually transpire.

Instead, the next day, I would reason that a cheat meal each day was okay, and next thing you know it was pizza day, and the next day I'd be tired and not want to cook dinner and so it was Zaxby's fried chicken, and well, lunch is a pain and so it was subway with a good sandwich but large soda. In fact, in every one of those meals it included a large soda! All those calories, all that sugar, spiking insulin levels, storing body fat.

I looked in the mirror and knew exactly why I wasn't seeing the progress I wanted or should have been seeing. I pledged almost every morning to do well and not have any sodas or junk that day. Yet 2 hours later sitting at my computer, bored, I would decide to drive the mile to the closest gas station to buy a Cherry Coke! All earlier pledges forgotten.

So, I know that during this Challenge if I give in to that Cheat Day, it will likely be the end of the Paleo part of the Challenge for me. That doesn't make it any easier to not do it though. The sad thing is, it isn't even that eating this way is terrible or anything. In fact, I love all the fresh food and the substitutes are good. I actually think that most of my issue is pure laziness when it comes to putting together meals and cooking. I can't stand cooking. I'm always rushed to get home and figure out what to make for everyone, knowing that there will likely be at least two people at the table complaining of how they hate this or that.

I also am a BORING cook. I only like a few different vegetables, and I'm picky as can be about the smell and consistency of my food. So, my options are seriously limited. I try branching out and trying new things, and I do. It works out pretty well most of the time - if I'm not cooking it! But, still, it is just so much easier to just sit at my computer at the end of my workday and plug in an order for pizza to arrive at 5:30, or to call my husband and ask him to stop on his way home to get some fast food.

So, there's the solution to my problem.....I just need to hire a cook instead of a cleaning lady, and I'll be able to eat healthy all the time! LOL!!